This positivity thing is not easy. I've been in a funk for a couple of days and can't seem to shake it. It doesn't seem to matter what I tell myself. I'm intelligent. I'm beautiful. I deserve good things. They aren't ringing true to me. I have a meeting with my supervisor on Monday to talk about something important (stay tuned) and the anxiety/shallow-breathing is driving me mad. There is no cure for this madness, as I am bringing it on myself. I know this. But it doesn't help. I know that the energy I put out is the energy I will get back, so I am trying to remind myself that the meeting will go well, that I deserve a positive outcome. I've done some breathing exercises without much success. If I'm busy enough I forget to focus on my breathing and that is a fantastic thing. But I can't be occupied 24/7. I can't control it when I wake up in the middle of the night (insomniac) and my breathing is off and even though I know it will eventually stop I don't know when and then it feels like it will never stop and then it's hello panic attack.
So I will continue to be kind to myself. I will continue to say I'm intelligent, I'm beautiful, I deserve good things. I will continue breathing exercises. I will continue to occupy myself. I will not give up. Acknowledgment: I am human. I can make mistakes. I can ask for help. Affirmation: It is my birthright to live fully and freely. I am worth loving. I now choose to live life fully. I am safe everywhere in the Universe. I love myself and trust the process of life. (Both taken from You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay) Gratitude: I am grateful for the people I have chosen to include in my life. They will help me through this.
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